Alhamdulillah. Been survived until this second. Fuhhh. I dont know how I managed to stand still after errrr unimaginable unexpected things that happen through months. It's Him anyway.Who give me strength to carry on and move on. Sometimes I wonder, what my life had taught me? Happiness?Struggling? Hardship? Pleasure? Its time to sit back and think.
Deep breath. Lama aku fikir nak taip mende kat atas tu. And yeah, after one paragraph kat atas tu siap, aku gelak. Hell yeah, thats me. Akan awkward bila buat benda-benda yang serius. Tak pernah nak serius bila duk sorang-sorang. But honestly, that paragraph is rrreaalll, honestly my feeling right now. Haha.
I love to think about life. My life, your life, others life. That what me tend to predict what other think. And that had make me understand people more. Faham diri sendiri still tak cukup. You need to understand other people so you will know whats life about. Kalau fikir pasal diri sendiri, kisah diri sendiri je tak cukup. Orang lain? Kena faham jugak. Hidup sorang-sorang, tak kisah pasal orang lain ni, takdak life bro. Janganlah jadi ignorant sangat. Yeah, I'd been in that situation. Dulu. And aku jugak pernah jadi ignorant. But tak ke mana nya ignorant tu, menyusahkan adalah. Kau tak kenal orang, kau tak pandai nak deal dengan orang, orang tak faham kau, apatah lagi, kau tak faham orang. Get a life pleaaseee. Itu dulu okay, sekarang dah tobat dah hahaha
I still struggling here, bila nak masuk Isnin je, kerja datang bertimbun-timbun. Okay, lets talk with my latest life update. Haha. Poyo. Still cannot move on from procrastination. And will end up with killing myself, just my inner self je lah. And aku rasa aku tahu kenapa aku still lagi pemalas nok haromm ni. There's a simple reason that make me become like this. Ingatkan dah move on, tapi bila fikir balik, aku still tak dapat fight benda tu, Its time to move on Amni. Thats enough. Jauh lagi aku kena jalan, Chin up.
Lately, fefeeling homesick gitu. No wait, aku bukan selalu homesick okay. Aku cool je kalau bab duk jauh dengan family ni, Honestly tak homesick pun time mula-mula berjauhan dengan family,time mula-mula masuk u ni. Tak caya tanya ummi saya. Peace. Homesick bukan apa, dah banyak kali aku plan nak balik sem ni, but end up with tak jadi. Well, nak balik tu, hati perasaan jasad roh confirm-confirm dah ada kat rumah. Tup-tup tak jadi balik. Bukan sekali jek, tapi dua kali kot. Agak ah pedih rasanya,nasib baik tak banjir gambang aku nangis. Cover sikit, kata macho.
And esok isnin. New challenge begin. Tiap hari benda baru aku jumpa. Well, thats life. Try to adapt with it and enjoy. Moga aku terus kuat untuk berjuang. Berjuang dengan diri sendiri.
Ciao.
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