Bangun.

I guess I'm living in another dream.

O Allah, please wake me up.

So that I can live the dream that I'm supposed to.

Please, wake me up. Guide me. So that I'll never fall apart, like I was. So that I'll realize Your plan is the best.

Moga aku bangun dari tidurku yang melenakan.

Life's update peeps (Y)

Alhamdulillah. Been survived until this second. Fuhhh. I dont know how I managed to stand still after errrr unimaginable unexpected things that happen through months. It's Him anyway.Who give me strength to carry on and move on. Sometimes I wonder, what my life had taught me? Happiness?Struggling? Hardship? Pleasure? Its time to sit back and think.

Deep breath. Lama aku fikir nak taip mende kat atas tu. And yeah, after one paragraph kat atas tu siap, aku gelak. Hell yeah, thats me. Akan awkward bila buat benda-benda yang serius. Tak pernah nak serius bila duk sorang-sorang. But honestly, that paragraph is rrreaalll, honestly my feeling right now. Haha.

I love to think about life. My life, your life, others life. That what me tend to predict what other think. And that had make me understand people more. Faham diri sendiri still tak cukup. You need to understand other people so you will know whats life about. Kalau fikir pasal diri sendiri, kisah diri sendiri je tak cukup. Orang lain? Kena faham jugak. Hidup sorang-sorang, tak kisah pasal orang lain ni, takdak life bro. Janganlah jadi ignorant sangat. Yeah, I'd been in that situation. Dulu. And aku jugak pernah jadi ignorant. But tak ke mana nya ignorant tu, menyusahkan adalah. Kau tak kenal orang, kau tak pandai nak deal dengan orang, orang tak faham kau, apatah lagi, kau tak faham orang. Get a life pleaaseee. Itu dulu okay, sekarang dah tobat dah hahaha

I still struggling here, bila nak masuk Isnin je, kerja datang bertimbun-timbun. Okay, lets talk with my latest life update. Haha. Poyo. Still cannot move on from procrastination. And will end up with killing myself, just my inner self je lah. And aku rasa aku tahu kenapa aku still lagi pemalas nok haromm ni. There's a simple reason that make me become like this. Ingatkan dah move on, tapi bila fikir balik, aku still tak dapat fight benda tu, Its time to move on Amni. Thats enough. Jauh lagi aku kena jalan, Chin up.

Lately, fefeeling homesick gitu. No wait, aku bukan selalu homesick okay. Aku cool je kalau bab duk jauh dengan family ni, Honestly tak homesick pun time mula-mula berjauhan dengan family,time mula-mula masuk u ni. Tak caya tanya ummi saya. Peace. Homesick bukan apa, dah banyak kali aku plan nak balik sem ni, but end up with tak jadi. Well, nak balik tu, hati perasaan jasad roh confirm-confirm dah ada kat rumah. Tup-tup tak jadi balik. Bukan sekali jek, tapi dua kali kot. Agak ah pedih rasanya,nasib baik tak banjir gambang aku nangis. Cover sikit, kata macho.

And esok isnin. New challenge begin. Tiap hari benda baru aku jumpa. Well, thats life. Try to adapt with it and enjoy. Moga aku terus kuat untuk berjuang. Berjuang dengan diri sendiri.

Ciao.

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Tak tau.

Yeay, tadi bukak buku nak study chemistry, but end up depan laptop. Tak tau lah kenapa rasa macam excited nak update blog. Tapi tak ready item pun nak update pasal apa.

Nak tulis pasal apa eh? Hmmm. Serius takdak idea.

Hmmm.

Excited je lebih.

Tak tau nak tulis pasal apa.

Hmmm.

Tu je lah kot.

Tak update kan, nanti sia-sia pulak rasa teruja tadi.

Dah.

Masya Allah susterr, kenapa jadi macam ni????

Tak tau.

Kbye.  Assalamualaikum.

Hi awakkk.

The Chaser.

Today, i realised that this life is all about "kejar".

Student, kejar pointer.

Officer, kejar position.

Businessman, kejar untung.

Celebrities, kejar populariti.

Politician, kejar pengaruh.

Editor, kejar dateline.

Insta pemes kejar likes.

Tweet pemes kejar retweet.

Pencinta kejar jodohnya.

Orang kaya kejar harta.

A family, kejar bahagia.

Peminat, kejar crush.


Tapi, kenapa nak berkejar? Sedangkan pemilik masa adalah Dia. Keep calm and have faith in Him.

Aku? Nak kejar apa?
Insya Allah kejar mati je. #eh  Sebab nak kejar Jannah, kena sedia untuk mati.

Peace yaw. Assalamualaikum.

Mirror.

Assalamualaikum.

Bukak new post.

Tulis satu ayat.

Ahh tak nak ahh,tak best.

Tutup balik.

Amaigadd. Susahnya nak konsisten bila berblog nih. aku yang pemaleh tahap delta nih susah sangat nak keep going updating this blog. Nak delete blog ni sayang sebab comel sangat. Haa pun boleh, comel pun boleh amni.

Hajat nak berkongsi tapi malas nak cari ilmu. End up with nothing to be shared. Susah jugak kan. Orang kata kalau nak cari ilmu, jangan memilih pada gurunya. Carilah ilmu walau dari seorang pengemis jalanan. Ye idok? Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak mintak ilmu dari siapa-siapa saja. Yang tua, yang muda, yang sama umur, yang kecik, yang besar. Taklah limited sangat. Nak cari ilmu, mesti dengan orang yang disegani, dihormati.

Bagi aku, kalau aku nak cari ilmu, dengan semua orang aku boleh dapat ilmu tu. Ego besar bapak dalam diri tu kena buang. The willingness to accept is one of the great thing I want to have. Because it'll lead to humbleness. Ya Allah, nikmatnya kalau dapat rasa macam tu. Seek the knowledge. Everywhere you go, everyone you meet, everything you face.

Lately, my motivation to study really at the worst. I dont know why, maybe I just let the things around me make me feel very down. Serabut, malas nak fikir and all those bad thing keep attacking me. Nak cari semangat tu balik ya Allah susah sangat. Keep seeking, keep wondering. Even tengok junior yang semangat duk study, biasalah kan dorang baru fefeeling jadi student kan. Im trying to feel dorang punya semangat tu. Sitting in library, looking to them who filled up the tiny library in each time between classes. Im trying to grab it and hopefully I'll feel it.

It's life right. Always fluctuated. Up, down, up again and so on. Kadang-kadang kita tercari-cari siapa kita. Kadang-kadang kita kenal sangat siapa kita sampaikan kita rasa tinggi. So high even everybody would never get me down. Kind of things right.

Yang penting, in this life, we have keep wondering what He planned for us. So that, we will never feel our life meaningless.

Weird.

Assalamualaikum. And. Hi. Awak. Semua.


Cant sleep. wondering and wondering. Wondering of what should I do in this darkness.

And realizing that I havent update this baby munchkin for a loooong time. Alaa acah acah sayang belog bersawang nih wakaka.

Listening to break up song. Dont know why, but I feel the lyrics. So heartbroken. Yet the music become addiction in my nerve.

And I realize eventually I have Chemistry tutorial to be done. Yet not even start it. Untouch. Then, what Im doing here, wasting my time rumbling to this nonsense. I dont know, cant figure it. My mind is confused,puzzled. Yet even thinking about this, it ludicrous. Ludicrous. Yes, very ludicrous.

Enough Amni, you may stop now. Or youll regret this. Trust meh.

Jangan nak merapu benda pelik-pelik.

Pelik pulak aku rasa.

Pelik.

That song. Replay it over and over.

End.

Dah.

Pergi buat tuto.

Kbye.

Semua. Assalamualaikum.

Good Luck baby good luck to you...

Baik

Once, cikgu Bio aku, Cikgu Romlah pernah cakap,

              "Kita kalau boleh mudahkan kerja orang, barulah orang lain mudahkan kerja kita"

That quote still melekat lagi kat kepala aku sampai aku bermastautin di bumi Gambang. And honestly, kat mana-mana je aku stay aku sentiasa ingat apa yang cikgu cakap especially bila kita buat kerja dengan orang.

I dont know but that phrase is like,stuck in my head. And I decided that will be my way of life. Naturally, bila buat kerja aku try untuk praktikkan. Bila ada program aku join, niat nak tolong apa yang patut walaupun aku punya skil ni tak seberapa. And aku still wondering whether it had already affected me or not. Tapi tak tau lah sama ada aku tak perasan. Tapi aku nekad untuk still wondering.

Sebab kita tak tahu bila kita tolong seseorang tu, its really mean a lot to his/her. Jangan refuse atau buat tak endah  bila orang mintak tolong kita. Mana tahu, kitalah yang Allah jadikan perantara untuk kabulkan doa seseorang. Subhanallah, untungnya dapat pahala lebih.

Tak salah kalau kita tolong orang even kita sendiri pun busy, diri kita pun tak tertolong. Aku yakin, kalau niat lillahitaala, Allah akan bantu kita. Tak mengapa jika kita korbankan masa kita, tenaga kita untuk mudahkan kerja orang lain. Tak payah risau, Allah akan tolong.

Malam ni. Appreciation Night untuk kami the pioneer, Al-Fateh kat bumi Gambang ni. Share gambar kat whatsapp family, angah cakap , "owwhhh okay. Patut pun lama tak hantar mesej, tak call, busy rupanya".
Ya Allah, sentap. Ni mesti ummi tanya angah, aku ada call ke tak.  2-3 minggu ni call sekali dua je ummi. Tak sempat, aku masuk bilik untuk tidur je, study untuk quiz and test buat yang termampu je. Tak melebih-lebih, aku tahu ramai lagi yang even lagi busy dari aku.

Setiap hari dalam hati teringat nak call ummi. Final dah nak dekat. And my grade setakat ni still insecure, tak menjamin apa-apa yang hebat. Nak mengadu kat ummi, nak mintak support dari ummi. Aku pun tak tau kenapa aku takdak masa untuk call ummi lebih kerap. Tersedar. Walaupun kelas penuh,pagi sampai petang, program itu ini aku still kena cari masa untuk ummi.

Moga Allah bantu aku. Bantu aku untuk kuat. Dan aku tahu aku perlu kuat.

Secretly.and.Humbly.

Assalamualaikum..

Hati

Hati.

Hari ini aku belajar pasal hati.
Hati ni lah yang kita perlu faham.
Hati ni lah yang perlu kita jaga.
Hati ni lah yang perlu kita fikirkan.
Hati ni lah yang perlu kita consider bila nak cakap.
Hati ni lah yang perlu dipujuk.

Bukan hati aku tapi hati orang lain.

Dan

I keep saying to myself,
Hati ni lah yang kena tough.
Hati ni lah yang kean bijak.
Hati ni lah yang kena sabar.
Hati ni lah yang kena consider orang lain punya hati baru before anything.
Hati ni lah yang kena tahan peluru yang sentap.
Hati ni lah yang kena jaga hati orang lain.
Hati ni lah yang kena toughtful.

TAPI

Aku tak sedar. Yang hati ini milik Dia. Aku kena jaga hati aku untuk Dia. Barulah hati aku ni akan tough, sabar. Jangan tunggu orang faham kita, baru kita nak faham dia. Fahamilah orang itu,barulah dia akan faham kita. Tak guna kita cakap sedap mulut je, tak kisah orang punya hati sakit ke tak. Tapi bila cakap, hati-hati, barulah tak merana hati orang lain.

End.

No Pain, No Gain

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Hi.

Rawwwwwrrr !! cr:tumlbr

There were times that you feel it's hard to live.
There were times that you feel everyone is not fair to you.
There were times that you have a big problem like a big stones is fall off on your head.
There were times that you feel something much heavy on your shoulder.
There were times that you feel like to go away from everyone and live on your own alone.
There were times that you feel you are still at the end back while others are keep running forward.
There were times that you think you cant reach your dream, seems it so far away from you.

Yeah, at times. I feel and think like that.

Dalam hidup ni adakalanya kita perlu menangis, agar kita sedar hidup ni bukan hanya untuk gembira dan ketawa. Adakalanya kita perlu ketawa agar kita tahu menghargai nilai setitis air mata. Kalau kita tidak merasa kesulitan hari ini, kita tidak akan merasa kemanisan di kemudian hari.
Tidak salah untuk sesekali kita perlu DERITA untuk mengenal erti BAHAGIA. Sesekali kita perlu KECEWA untuk kita kenal erti KEJAYAAN. Sesekali kita perlu MENANGIS untuk kita syukuri NIKMAT yang diberi. Sesekali kita perlu TERHIRIS untuk kita kenal DIRI SENDIRI  - penmerahshoppe;ig

Deep.
I'm thinking that it was hard to me to let myself hurt. Sebab aku takut susah, aku takut sakit,aku takut bila ada masalah. I think the hardship,problem will get me down. But I realize that sometime we have to feel the pain in order the gain something worth. Takdak maknnya kejayaan tu tanpa sakit dan pedih,betul tak?Yeah, it totally right, NO PAIN, NO GAIN. If I want to get what I want, I must go for it.  No half-work. Seem that my effort selama ni still tak cukup untuk bawak aku jumpa impian aku. Honestly, aku memang akui itu.

Kadang-kadang kita kena terhiris untuk kita kenal diri kita. Baru kita sedar,itu adalah alarm clock kita untuk berubah. Hidup, kalau takdak perubahan, means that you got nothing with your life. Your life is meaningless. Its okay to hurt sometimes, because from the pain, you will know who you are, what is the world is all about, who you are from other's perspective. Kadang-kadang kita perlu orang lain untuk tahu siapa kita. Sebab kita rasa kita dah cukup baik,sempurna but reality is completely different. Sebab itu yang kita rasa, not the true action. Terasa bila terima teguran tu totally great, its mean that hati kita tu masih lembut untuk diubah, buktinya kita ttersentap bila ada orang tegur kesalahan kita. Bayangkan kalau kita tak kisah pun apa orang cakap,tegur, seem that hati tu dah keras untuk menerima sesuatu yang baru.

Hari-hari aku tengok orang yang berjaya dalam hidup mereka. And honestly, I'm very jealous of them. They got great family, great achievement in study, nice job, great life and I see that everything going smooth in their life. Always wonder whether I can be like em or not. Hmmmm

So, I decided that my revolution for this year is

NO PAIN,NO GAIN. If you want it, take it to fullest. Feel the pain, you will gain the victory. Non-stop, keep accelerate. 

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Peace yo ! Assalamualaikum.

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DISCLAIMER : 

First of all, I realize that ramai yang visit this page lately. Yaa, sebab dah dapat tahu result UPU kan for SPM 2015 right? Congrates that you make it to pursue here and welcome to this family! The thing is, this post was published by me in 2014, 2 tahun yang lepas, which is a bit irrelevant kalau awak semua rujuk saya punya page untuk the latest condition there. Sebab dah 2 tahun kan plus I am the first batch, I bet so many perubahan berlaku kat sana, and orang pun dah ramai kat sana hehe. I am really sorry that I cant update the latest one for you. But, for more info, you can visit our FB : CFS IIUM Gambang or CFS IIUM 2016/2017. Do ask anything and everything. Sorry and thank youu 

Hello and hi. Assalamualaikum.

Lets Be Brave in 2014 !!! 

My first post in 2014. oh yeah, dah nak masuk Februari baru nak update. okay nampak sangat blog aku hambar jee. Maklong lah too many things happened in this very early of the year,sampaikan tak sempat nak update blog. And yeah too many things change just in this month.

Well,Alhamdulillah, me back to study continue my foundation that still have a looong time to end. Meh yaa really a long time to end. And guess what, aku dah tak stay kat PJ instead Im now at Gambang haha you know yang ada Gambang Waterpark tuu sooo annoying  . Kita berjiran tau dengan Gambang Waterpark haha.

Sebenarnya, dari Petaling Jaya aku dah pindah ke Gambang di mana terletaknya kampus baru untuk Asasi UIA. Dekat PJ still ada lagi dan kat Gambang still in construction. Tapi aku dah ada kat Gambang ni? Acano tu? Proses pindah tu dia buat secara berperingkat. Peringkat pertama, kita-kita yang bergelar students Medic, Dentistry dan Pharmacy. So, 3 course ni je lah yang ada kat sini sekarang. Students Medic, Dentistry and Pharmacy batch 13/14, the first batch and the pioneer. Then, lepas ni akan ada kedua dan ketiga dan so on.

Tahun baru, tempat baru, kampus baru, mahallah baru, semua baru lah.

First, CFS yang baruuuu.

Admin Building. cr:CFS IIUM Gambang

Its so beautiful! Mostly made of glass and during the day, tak guna lighting pun sebab bumbung dia semua glass. Cantikkk ! Kalau sebelah malam lagi cantikk wa cakap sama lu ! *ni terlebih excited punya gaya* . Then for the time being kitorang punya kelas kat sini. So, hari-hari datang sini fulamakk hari-hari aku excited kagum tengok bangunan ni haha kantoii

Admin Building at night. cr:CFS IIUM Gambang

Then our Mahallah Ibnu Sina. Yeah, the name is Ibnu Sina because at this moment hanya sciences students je kat sini as I mentioned early. There are 5 blocks. Block A and B for brothers while Block C, D and E for sisters.

at the front gate.  cr:CFS IIUM Gambang

view from Block B. at the right is Block A and left onward C, D and E. cr:CFS IIUM Gambang

Anddd the most thing yang aku bersyukur sangat bila datang sini is, the rooommm !! hehe sape yang tak excited kalau bilik tu cenggini haa

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This is the double, nope maybe triple size compare dengan yang kat PJ heeee. Each room consists of 4 compartments, each student got 1 compartment. 1 compartment ada katil, loker, meja study, rak buku dan softboard. Even each compartment has its own fan and lamp yayyy. Seriously, memang luas gilaa bak hang! haha nampak tak keterujaan kat situ.

My compartment.

My bed. Kebetulan aku bawak cadar warna sama dengan warna tema bilik ni haha

and locker at the right side.

And setakat ni semua fasiliti dah ada. Cafe, kiosk, gym, tempat riadah. TV room semua ada. And disebabkan tempat ni masih dalam construction, and atas sebab keselamatan kitorang kena pergi ke kelas dengan bas walaupun jarak mahallah dengan kelas tu dalam 1.5 km je *tapi jauh jugak tu*. Alhamdulillah our safety here in the best control I can said. Walaupun kitaorang duduk dikeliling hutan. There are lectures who stayed at mahallah together with us, pak guards semua. Thanks so much! Scenery kat sini pun cantikk. Ku nampak hijau di mana-mana. Udara pun segar and sejukkk. Haaaa wifi pun laju. Every class ada router wifi even kat mahallah pun ada, setiap level,setiap blok.

The most important things is, Alhamdulillah bi'ah solehah (green@islamic environment) yang menjadi kewajipan UIA dapat diteruskan kat sini. Respect ahh dengan kawan-kawan semua *bangga weyy*. And we are trying so hard to make sure the islamic environment is instilled here completely, Inshaa Allah. Tak lupa jugak, kat sini pun dah ada societies especially those the mains. Insha Allah,they are on their way in establishing.

Yang paling best kat sini, ukhuwah antara kita-kita the best ahh. Mostly, we knows each others.So, segala kekurangan di sini tak terasa sangat sebab we took care of each others. 

Haaaa bab study tak masuk lagi. Post kali ni terlebih panjang la pulak heee. This semester, Im taking Math 1, Chem 1 and Bio 1. Another nerve-wrecking semester haha. Doakan aku dapat tempuh tu semua.Aminnnn. 

Dannn tak sabar nak welcoming junior-junior yang akan datang. Kat sini best tau, kakak-kakak and abang-abang senior semua baik-baik dan hebat-hebat. Even aku pun respect dengan dorang semua xp Dengan bi'ah solehahnya. Terbaikk ! *thumbs up* Insha Allah terbaik dunia dan akhirat :)

Dah lah. Dah berjam aku duk ngadap laptop petang ni hahaha. Assalamualaikum...