Mumbling.

Assalamualaikum and haii all

A not-so-lucky week. Things just dont go well for me in these 2 weeks. Got fever and its package (flu, headache,sakit badan). Nasib baik tak batuk Alhamdulillah if not, I'll menyusahkan orang lain dengan dont-disturb-me-i-am-pissed-off-with-everything face.

And the things is, I've got may things have to be done last week and this week. Yesterday (Saturday) I had Biology test. Can you imagine how I struggled to study Biology with my terrible condition and sampai satu tahap rasa macam dah lupa apa yang dah baca haha sebab sakit kepala. On that day, I just tawakkal to Allah that semuanya akan berjalan lancar. Anndd the test was not too okay, pada akulah, it was really bad (insert nangis emoticon).

Next week will gonna be another tough week. I have Math quiz on Thursday which is I'm still blur with that analytic trigonometry things. And tomorrow I have to submit introduction draft for my research and I've been done nothing on it. Yet I still open my laptop and membebel kat sini, kan? Nampak tak kat situ. Have to submit tutorial on tomorrow morning and few other thing had to be done.

It's getting hotter right these day plus the sunstroke. mbSebab tu kena demam. My body cepat detect perubahan cuaca, I'll the first one that probably akan dapat penyakit since antibody lemah. It will be worse if I'm in the middle of stress. I'll be tanak bangun, tanak cakap dah macam ada depression.

Anyway, when I'm ill it is He who cures me. Sakit tu, Allah nak hapus dosa. Sedarlah bahawasanya dosa tu banyak. Why nak rasa serabut? just do apa yang termampu,insyaAllah Allah mudahkan. Takde motif membebel kat sini nak bagi tahu semua orang. But at least feel relieved laaa

Done with the mumbling. Pray for your and my good health. Amin. Bye

We will never know our destiny unless you are know what you are doing now.

Assalamualaikum and haiii


When you are in the situation being in depression.. Feel like everything dont go well.  

Check our hati. Our heart. Are we close enough to our Creator? Are our ibadah before and now is sufficient enough to get close to Him? Check balik because only we know how our heart is.

If we had been doing the ibadah, compulsory and sunnah but we still
rasa tak tenang,asyik stress and depressed je,rasa kosong je. Then,we should do something about it.

Maybe reciting the Quran 1 page a day is not enough. Maybe solat awal waktu is not enough,maybe time solat tu fikirkan assignment and homework. Maybe solat sunat hajat lepas maghrib not enough,maybe kena buat solat rawatib and solat malam. Maybe cover your aurah is not enough,maybe hati tu selalu je umpat orang jalan depan kita. Maybe after solat, tak sempat wirid doa dah blah,maybe you should take your time to wirid and dua to Him. Dua like you mean it. Maybe maybe maybe there is a lot of problem sampai tak tahu nak tulis apa.

Tak cakap kat orang. Cakap kat sendiri je.

For me,its okay bila you fikir you ni tak lah baik sangat. At least you sedar you ada kekurangan and you should do something to improve yourself. Changing is better when you do it sikit sikit dulu lama lama jadi elok. Keep trying to be a better person and insya Allah in the process, youll meet many people that show you how to be a good servant to your Creator. Effort tu yang penting. I will not regret as I try my best. Yang penting Dia tahu kita dah usaha. Berkat is the most important thing.


"Rugilah kalau tak jadi doktor"
"Asalkan berTUHAN, apa nak risau"

Im sorry ummi, abah.
Doakan achik.


Bye chuolls.. kiss and hug.

Just Once.

Just once.

Let me cry my heart out.

And I'll pick up the mess, including myself and start over again.

Baik

Once, cikgu Bio aku, Cikgu Romlah pernah cakap,

              "Kita kalau boleh mudahkan kerja orang, barulah orang lain mudahkan kerja kita"

That quote still melekat lagi kat kepala aku sampai aku bermastautin di bumi Gambang. And honestly, kat mana-mana je aku stay aku sentiasa ingat apa yang cikgu cakap especially bila kita buat kerja dengan orang.

I dont know but that phrase is like,stuck in my head. And I decided that will be my way of life. Naturally, bila buat kerja aku try untuk praktikkan. Bila ada program aku join, niat nak tolong apa yang patut walaupun aku punya skil ni tak seberapa. And aku still wondering whether it had already affected me or not. Tapi tak tau lah sama ada aku tak perasan. Tapi aku nekad untuk still wondering.

Sebab kita tak tahu bila kita tolong seseorang tu, its really mean a lot to his/her. Jangan refuse atau buat tak endah  bila orang mintak tolong kita. Mana tahu, kitalah yang Allah jadikan perantara untuk kabulkan doa seseorang. Subhanallah, untungnya dapat pahala lebih.

Tak salah kalau kita tolong orang even kita sendiri pun busy, diri kita pun tak tertolong. Aku yakin, kalau niat lillahitaala, Allah akan bantu kita. Tak mengapa jika kita korbankan masa kita, tenaga kita untuk mudahkan kerja orang lain. Tak payah risau, Allah akan tolong.

Malam ni. Appreciation Night untuk kami the pioneer, Al-Fateh kat bumi Gambang ni. Share gambar kat whatsapp family, angah cakap , "owwhhh okay. Patut pun lama tak hantar mesej, tak call, busy rupanya".
Ya Allah, sentap. Ni mesti ummi tanya angah, aku ada call ke tak.  2-3 minggu ni call sekali dua je ummi. Tak sempat, aku masuk bilik untuk tidur je, study untuk quiz and test buat yang termampu je. Tak melebih-lebih, aku tahu ramai lagi yang even lagi busy dari aku.

Setiap hari dalam hati teringat nak call ummi. Final dah nak dekat. And my grade setakat ni still insecure, tak menjamin apa-apa yang hebat. Nak mengadu kat ummi, nak mintak support dari ummi. Aku pun tak tau kenapa aku takdak masa untuk call ummi lebih kerap. Tersedar. Walaupun kelas penuh,pagi sampai petang, program itu ini aku still kena cari masa untuk ummi.

Moga Allah bantu aku. Bantu aku untuk kuat. Dan aku tahu aku perlu kuat.

Secretly.and.Humbly.

Assalamualaikum..

No Pain, No Gain

Assalamualaikum. Hello. Hi.

Rawwwwwrrr !! cr:tumlbr

There were times that you feel it's hard to live.
There were times that you feel everyone is not fair to you.
There were times that you have a big problem like a big stones is fall off on your head.
There were times that you feel something much heavy on your shoulder.
There were times that you feel like to go away from everyone and live on your own alone.
There were times that you feel you are still at the end back while others are keep running forward.
There were times that you think you cant reach your dream, seems it so far away from you.

Yeah, at times. I feel and think like that.

Dalam hidup ni adakalanya kita perlu menangis, agar kita sedar hidup ni bukan hanya untuk gembira dan ketawa. Adakalanya kita perlu ketawa agar kita tahu menghargai nilai setitis air mata. Kalau kita tidak merasa kesulitan hari ini, kita tidak akan merasa kemanisan di kemudian hari.
Tidak salah untuk sesekali kita perlu DERITA untuk mengenal erti BAHAGIA. Sesekali kita perlu KECEWA untuk kita kenal erti KEJAYAAN. Sesekali kita perlu MENANGIS untuk kita syukuri NIKMAT yang diberi. Sesekali kita perlu TERHIRIS untuk kita kenal DIRI SENDIRI  - penmerahshoppe;ig

Deep.
I'm thinking that it was hard to me to let myself hurt. Sebab aku takut susah, aku takut sakit,aku takut bila ada masalah. I think the hardship,problem will get me down. But I realize that sometime we have to feel the pain in order the gain something worth. Takdak maknnya kejayaan tu tanpa sakit dan pedih,betul tak?Yeah, it totally right, NO PAIN, NO GAIN. If I want to get what I want, I must go for it.  No half-work. Seem that my effort selama ni still tak cukup untuk bawak aku jumpa impian aku. Honestly, aku memang akui itu.

Kadang-kadang kita kena terhiris untuk kita kenal diri kita. Baru kita sedar,itu adalah alarm clock kita untuk berubah. Hidup, kalau takdak perubahan, means that you got nothing with your life. Your life is meaningless. Its okay to hurt sometimes, because from the pain, you will know who you are, what is the world is all about, who you are from other's perspective. Kadang-kadang kita perlu orang lain untuk tahu siapa kita. Sebab kita rasa kita dah cukup baik,sempurna but reality is completely different. Sebab itu yang kita rasa, not the true action. Terasa bila terima teguran tu totally great, its mean that hati kita tu masih lembut untuk diubah, buktinya kita ttersentap bila ada orang tegur kesalahan kita. Bayangkan kalau kita tak kisah pun apa orang cakap,tegur, seem that hati tu dah keras untuk menerima sesuatu yang baru.

Hari-hari aku tengok orang yang berjaya dalam hidup mereka. And honestly, I'm very jealous of them. They got great family, great achievement in study, nice job, great life and I see that everything going smooth in their life. Always wonder whether I can be like em or not. Hmmmm

So, I decided that my revolution for this year is

NO PAIN,NO GAIN. If you want it, take it to fullest. Feel the pain, you will gain the victory. Non-stop, keep accelerate. 

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Peace yo ! Assalamualaikum.

Wonder How This Will End. One Fine Day..

Assalamualaikum and hi alls.

Allah pertemukan kita dengan orang yang lebih baik,supaya kita fikir bukan kita je yang hebat, Dia tak bagi kita riak. Allah pertemukan kita dengan orang yang ada kekurangan berbanding dengan kita,supaya kita fikir bukan kita je yang ada masalah,still ada lagi yang diuji lebih berat daripada kita.
Dia tentukan begitu sebab nak suruh kita bersyukur dengan apa yang kita ada.. Alhamdulillah. Berhenti mengeluh. Teruskan perjuangan.

Ittew tak tau tapi ittew sangat stress sekarang. Nak exam physic acano ni. Ahaa nampak menggedik je kerja. Masalahnya aku dah jadi macam zombie dah ni. Aku tahu orang lain pun stress tapi aku pun stress haha. Saje nak luahkan. Ni kan belog ittew,suka hati perasaan ittew lerr. Nak nangis pun hado. Ummi, ore stressss !!!! Huwaaa.
P/s final physic sabtu ni doakan saya semua ahhhh takuttttt Rabbi yassir wala tuassir

Sorry title tak parallel dengan isi. Haaahaa suka hati letak title lain,tulis lain hemmm Study week pun menyempat nk update belog haaha bye uolls. Assalamualaikum..