Hey guys

Guys, right now I feel like to write so hopefully I will finish this as soon as possible. Taklah tersimpan kat draft je kan. Thinking back, I already own this blog for about 6 years. Its all began in 2009 when I was in form 2. I started to blog in the age of 14 when we were asked to sign up a blog when studying ICT subject at school.

This thing was unintended at all. I was nerd, intimidate, introvert and what so on personality of a boring person. Haha. Tak menarik langsung hidup aku dulu. Eleh sekarang pun apa kurangnya.

Looking back, honestly I didnt make any significant improvement or whatsoever big changes since I started this blog. Semangat nak berblog tu turun naik turun naik kadang kadang tenggelam terus. Sometimes, I have a lot of things to write about but it ended I forgot all that things. Mostly, I get the impromptu and awesome (welll I can say it awesome) ideas during shower,ah well then totally lose them when I finish with the shower. Sia sia brainstorm time shower end up lupa.

I blog just because I want to. Its kind of fun to do this thing because it makes me think, think and think. It helps me express myself but when I do it, I do get a little attention and it was sooo awkward honestly. Sebab tu kalau nak publish something personally, fikir hundreds times dulu. Because I have the thing that I dont know what you called it but I called it attention-phobia. I do think attention is good because it helps to build your confidence but being a attention seeker is a big NO ahaa.

Its been 6 years, but why my published entries was so little? Because I deleted some of them. Why? Because some of them are the immature side of me. They were the past of me. Me in the past is the one that I dont want to get back, because I knew I lack so much back then. So, dont judge my past and know my present will be the best. It will, malu gila kot kalau korang baca entry entry lama dulu, zaman jahiliah dulu well tak nak , so by deleting them I boleh move on hahaha.

p/s : I'm soryy if my language kind of tunggang langgang. Jetlag tak habis lagi baru balik hostel naik bas tadi dari rumah.

Terbang.

Sepatutnya aku siapkan report bio nak hantar esok. Tapi time cenggini lah tiba-tiba rasa nak mennaip adoiii..

Hidup ni.... most of the time unexpected kan? Lain kita plan, lain yang jadi. Lain kita nak, lain yang datang. Lain yang kita mintak, lain yang dia bagi. Eh pelik pulak aku baca ayat aku ni, kalau tak faham mohon pencerahan.

Dulu aku punya keinginan adalah untuk terbang. Terbang ke negara orang untuk mengejar apa yang aku nak. Berjauhan dengan family dan kawan-kawan yang aku kenal. Merasai suasana empat musim di negara orang putih sana. Nak rasa musim sejuk pakai baju tebal main salji. Nak hirup udara segar musim bunga. Dan nak buktikan yang aku ni bukan seorang yang lemah, mampu berdiri di atas kudrat sendiri, berdikari hidup jauh dari family.

Kononnya. Itu semua angan-angan siang malam aku time kanak-kanak ribena.Tapi, nampaknya keinginanku itu tidak kesampaian. Cuma mampu tercampak di sini, lebih kurang 400 km je dari rumah, naik bas 8 jam, naik AirAsia 55 minit. Hahaha. Angan-angan saja semuanya. 

See? Apa yang aku plan selama ni tak jadi pun. Nampak tak hidup ni memang unpredictable. Aku tak pernah terfikir ni untuk belajar kat sini and amik bidang yang aku belajar sekarang ni. Pelik kan? It was really really never come out in my mind. Seriuosly, kalaulah aku dapat sambung degree dalam bidang yang aku pegang namanya ni, aku tak tahu akan jadi macam mana sebab benda ni aku tak pernah angan-angankan. Always lah aku fikir, ME? Being a person who will study all about oral and kerja nanti hari hari ngadap gigi orang je? Jauh sekali dari angan-anganku yang nak jadi thoracic surgeon hmmm 

Tapi aku yakin dan percaya dengan perancangan Dia, Aku tahu pada saat apa yang aku inginkan tidak kesampaian,sebenarnya Dia sedang mengatur perjalanan hidup aku. Perjalanan and takdir hidup yang terbaik untuk Hamba-Nya. Semuanya ada hikmah, sama ada kita jatuh atau kita berdiri di puncak. Yang pasti aku kena bersyukur dan live my life to the fullest. Dan ini automatically menjadi tanggungjawab aku untuk belajar, cari ilmu untuk masa depan aku.

Dan aku nak semua yang kecewa dengan hidup dia, oh sorry for being rude but you shouldnt fell like that. Please wake up and keep running. I believe that you can do it. Aku pun percaya, so korang pun kenalah percaya. Trust me babeyh *poyo tak ingat dunia* Percayalah bro, lepas ni akan ada yang lebih baik untuk ko Reflect back and yakin dengan Allah. So, please stop mengeluh, benci and bangun dear.

Ahaa yang pasal nak pergi luar negara tu, tak pe tak pe tekad aku satu hari nanti aku pasti akan ke sana *cett revenge sikit* Insya Allah... Nanti aku angkut satu kampung pergi hahaha

o yeah minggu ni balik kelantan. rumahhhhh tunguu akuuu !!

Assalamualaikum... Bai bai bai *gaya ending shin chan*

The Journey, Still Continuing....

Assalamualaikum. Moshi moshi semua..

Still, if you doubt with yourself, have faith with Allh. Couse He will guide you to the right path 

Dua Tiga hari sebelum balik sini dah fikir apa yang nak ditulis kat blog ni. haa nampak tu niat nak update dah ada. Tapi hmmm still saat ni pun tengah poning memerah hotak nak tulis pasal apa. Sebelum balik sini? That's means my beloved CFS lerr.(we prefer to use CFS instead of UIA because its Centre for Foundation studies, not for the degrees, here in PJ is differents from the Gombak one) get it guys? hehe

So, yaa Im already here now. Had first class today. Rasa kejap je duk kat rumah 3 minggu then datang sini balik *sigh*. Yeah new semester already. Means that result for Semester 1 is already been annouced. Ahha result? grade? GPA? hmm Alhamdulillah oke laa *sengih* The result was abit unexpected,but thank Allah, its going out well. hmm apa lagi yang nak dibebel eh? Ohh my English Placement Test and Arabic Placement Test result also. Alhamdulillah, tak de repeat fail segala. Dah tak payah belajar English and Arabic anymore.

But seriously, miss to learn Arabic so much sebab aku enjoy sangat-sangat time belajar Arab. Ustazah and Ustaz were so nice and fun. Belajar Arab kat sini seriously teringat time zaman Form 1- 3 belajar Arab yang sangat best. Ehuhuu rindu la pulak *nanges jap*. So did English. It was damn fun and awesome. Macam-macam benda baru aku buat haha bila teringat tu, ish betul ke aku buat benda-benda tu semua? sumpah aku tak percaya. Social skill aku pun improve through English ni ahaa. Tapi kalau boleh dah tanak belajar English haha jahat tak? Bukan ape, honestly, it was tough, stressful and  hectic.

And now, get ready for Semester 2. Bersedia untuk mengadap Chemistry Lab and Biology Lab hari-hari. And Im sure it'll be errr boring ahhaa. Since the subjects that Ill be taking this semester are Chemistry Practical and Biology Practical only. So, hari-hari pergi lab, buat eksperimen, then siapkan report. Tak busy sangat tapi yang pasti akan buat aku lagi laidback kat dalam bilik ni. Makan, tidur, pergi kelas. Tu je..And hari-hari jeles dengan kengkawan yang still cuti 3 bulan tu, untunglah korang, takde short sem huihh.

Get new room at new block,old roommates, old classmates and new classmates. and for sure, new experience. Tak sabar, tak sabar, tak sabar.

Dah dah dah. Dah tanak merapu panjang-panjang nanti annoying pulak. Dan maaf aku tulis campur-campur English dan Melayu. Dah tak boleh nak elak sebab aku main taip je apa yang ada dalam kepala. Its how I think, campur-campur. Sorry lah kalau pening *gomen*. Well, Malaysia kan terdiri daripada bangsa dan bahasa yang pelbagai haha.

Now, craving for a cup of cappucino and a piece of marvelous cake :B

Sampai sini, assalamualaikum, bye korang...

The Night is Still Alive and Young, So do the Memories

Saturday.10.35 am. Lying on the bed. Eh nope, I'm not sleeping okay but just lying. you know,lying. errrr With the laptop, in front of me. While I'm doing some pieces of writing to make sure my blog is updated after two month. College Physic book is lying beside me, closed since this early morning and I dont know when I'll open the book again. ahhh

Assalamualaikum and hi all. ㅋㅋㅋㅋ
That lines. I was supposed to publish this entry on last weekend but.. you know,its always happen that those idea was just runaway from my brain haha. See,some excuses from me. So  lazy mah to think what to write. Then,end up with 5 lines jakk haha *mak ai tengok tu,multilanguage segala*

Takpe takpe malam ni nak sambung entri tu yang tertangguh.

It shows already 12.26 am. And still cant sleep. Blames on the caffeine haha. Sape suruh minum Nescafe memalam buta nih,kan dah kena padahnya, Jadi pandalah aku malam ni. Still lying on bed, pressing the keyboard that produce clicking sound whenever I press any letter *a little bit noisy* , College Physic book on the side *yes,still* closed *again* anddd it'll be test tomorrow ! Nope, not tomorrow but about 10 hours more on countdown. Actually, want to take a five minutes rest but it had been an hour O.o Seriously, procrastination had lead me to be like this, be an owl with panda eyes whenever there'll be test or quiz the next day. Kinda dont like it but have to,but end up with blogging or scrolling the Twitter's timeline. LOL sound like critical and serious problem of me right haha.

One of my roommate said, "Procrastination is the time's killer" whenever she seeing me laid back, doing nothing haha. Seems she understand my serious illness and thanks to her, I always reminded to not to delay my assignment Alhamdulillah. But still not fully recovered as you can see my situation right now kahkahkah *amboi mak cik,sopannya gelak*

Feeling the pressure now, as the end of semester just few weeks more so as the final exam. I tend not to think about it because I still feel to laugh and enjoy my days without stress but still taking note that I have to be ready for the final. Yet, you have to have fun, I really mean it guys. No matter whatever assignment, quiz, test, project, report that have to be done and the dateline always really insane, but have fun doing it. Put the sincerity and think positively. Memang lah kadang-kadang memang susah, aku pun rasa macam nak telan je assignment project bagai tu haha nak migrain, headache hari-hari dibuatnye but still trying to keep calm. He's always there for us guys *senyum sikit*

Kisah sebenarnya, minggu ni memang stress. English Speaking Test, Physic Test, ICT quiz, program's proposal need to be submitted,assignments of course berlambak. Tapi Alhamdulillah, still dapat gelak sakan dengan rommates  and classmates. And dipermudahkan urusan oleh-Nya. Tittew sukeee sukiii sangat-sangat ;p And yang lebih awesome lagi, I'm really really grateful that the ukhuwah still strong between me and my friends, to be exact my high school friends *Saen jak kecik lagi* LOL copy siket orang lain punye ayat. Get call from them, messanges, wechat and whatsapp. Ya Allah, thank you korang sebab ingat saya lagi. Seriously, memang bahagia sangat dapat borak-borak, chatting and automatically teringat zaman muda-muda dulu,moment-moment bersama-sama. And saya sangat rindukan awok-awok semua huhu emo.sedih. Because most of them had been my classmates for the my entire five years of high school. From Form 1 to Form 5. Of course cikgu-cikgu lagilah saya rinduuu. haaaa nak nanges euheuheu

#throwback Last day of SPM. semua muka bahagia tersangat-sangat. #rindu

The Great Alphanian. dulu annoying, sekarang rindu haha . kadang-kadang je annoying tuu :p