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Amaigadd. Susahnya nak konsisten bila berblog nih. aku yang pemaleh tahap delta nih susah sangat nak keep going updating this blog. Nak delete blog ni sayang sebab comel sangat. Haa pun boleh, comel pun boleh amni.
Hajat nak berkongsi tapi malas nak cari ilmu. End up with nothing to be shared. Susah jugak kan. Orang kata kalau nak cari ilmu, jangan memilih pada gurunya. Carilah ilmu walau dari seorang pengemis jalanan. Ye idok? Kadang-kadang rasa macam nak mintak ilmu dari siapa-siapa saja. Yang tua, yang muda, yang sama umur, yang kecik, yang besar. Taklah limited sangat. Nak cari ilmu, mesti dengan orang yang disegani, dihormati.
Bagi aku, kalau aku nak cari ilmu, dengan semua orang aku boleh dapat ilmu tu. Ego besar bapak dalam diri tu kena buang. The willingness to accept is one of the great thing I want to have. Because it'll lead to humbleness. Ya Allah, nikmatnya kalau dapat rasa macam tu. Seek the knowledge. Everywhere you go, everyone you meet, everything you face.
Lately, my motivation to study really at the worst. I dont know why, maybe I just let the things around me make me feel very down. Serabut, malas nak fikir and all those bad thing keep attacking me. Nak cari semangat tu balik ya Allah susah sangat. Keep seeking, keep wondering. Even tengok junior yang semangat duk study, biasalah kan dorang baru fefeeling jadi student kan. Im trying to feel dorang punya semangat tu. Sitting in library, looking to them who filled up the tiny library in each time between classes. Im trying to grab it and hopefully I'll feel it.
It's life right. Always fluctuated. Up, down, up again and so on. Kadang-kadang kita tercari-cari siapa kita. Kadang-kadang kita kenal sangat siapa kita sampaikan kita rasa tinggi. So high even everybody would never get me down. Kind of things right.
Yang penting, in this life, we have keep wondering what He planned for us. So that, we will never feel our life meaningless.
